When I first entered Roehampton, I was told that I need 120 credits in each year to graduate.  However, after completing 90 instead, they told me that that was fine.  In fact, when asked “Will this affect my graduation?” I got a flat out “NO.”

So why is it, four months after when my graduation was supposed to happen, I was not invited?  No, no, it turns out that because things have changed SO MUCH in the past three years, that my lack of credits WILL affect my graduation.

This wouldn’t be much of a problem if I was told about this during my final year at the University.  If I had been told that, then I would have taken more than one lecture in my first term of third year.  But whatever.  I’ve gotten over that.  I’ve gotten over the fact that after moving 2 hours away from London, I have to commute back and forth every Tuesday and Thursday to make up classes that they didn’t tell me about.  Fine.  If that’s what it takes to get that goddamn degree I’ve worked my ass off for, then fine.

I have to go on Tuesday to a class from 2 until 5.  I don’t get back to the house at least till about 7 or quarter past.  And that’s only if I have the money to take a cab back home.  Otherwise I have to walk up to the bus stop which is about 10 minutes away from the train station, wait 15 minutes for the bus to arrive, then travel another 15 minutes to actually get home.  I can walk back to the house in 8 minutes flat.

Thursdays are worse.  I have a class from 2 until 5, AND THEN, I have another class from 6 until 8.  This doesn’t get me back home until about half past 10.  Whoop-de-fucking-doo.

But once again, I’ve gotten over that.  I’ve accepted it, and I’m fine with it.

And then some good news arrives.  Apparently, I was told that I am actually able to take any class, as long as it makes up my lacking credits.  So voila, there is a class for 30 credits, which means I can drop my two classes on Thursday, and just handle getting back at half past 7 (since that is when the class would end).  SOUND.

So I e-mail my tutor about it, and ask her if there is any possibility.  But of course, I should have known better than to get my hopes up about something that could potentially relieve the stress that I have already because to be quite honest with you, I already have fuck loads of work to do.  In fact, I should probably get started on it next week, even though none of it is due until December 19th.

BUT AGAIN THEY HAVE DECEIVED ME! For in fact, it DOES matter what level the course is in for me to make the credits up.  The class I wanted to take was a second year course.  But because the credits I lack are in my FIRST YEAR I CAN’T FUCKING TAKE IT.

So awesome.  I mean, I know it’s not that big a deal, but the constant frustration that I am feeling is because I keep feeling that I’m being lied to by an organisation that I have spent thousands, upon thousands of pounds for.  They just keep bojangling me about, and as much as I loved my years at Roehampton, I just want to be able to walk up on that stage, stick my hand out, and take my diploma back home where it belongs.  I’m tired of them telling me different things, and then the outcome come out in the exact opposite of my benefit.

Their excuses are always these two:

“It’s every students responsibility to check their profiles and double check that everything is down correctly”

And

“Well, the University is constantly making changes and so we’re never aware of what might affect one student.  We have a lot of students, so we can’t keep up with it.”

Alright, so my response to the first one is I HAVE BEEN CHECKING MY STUDENT PROFILE.  The problem was not the fact that I didn’t notice my lack of credits.  I noticed my lack of credits.  I was concerned about my lack of credits.  I ASKED about my lack of credits.  I was told my lack of credits would not affect my graduation.

To the second one, I understand entirely that the University makes changes.  I honestly do.  Again, that’s not the issue.  The fact that there are a lot of students at the school is also not an excuse.  It is their jobs to inform the students who pay them loads of money that we will be paying back until the age of 90, when changes occur.  If I had been told about the changes, I would not be in the current situation.

I absolutely loved being at Roehampton.  I loved the people I met, and the friendships that were created that will never, in my life ever be forgotten.  I am so happy to know that when I get older, and start telling my daughter and son about the times, I was in college, I can start that sentence by saying just that; When I was in College, my friends and I had the best time doing…..

It’s just this final step.  I’ve been working and trying so hard to get this stupid degree, and one that might not even get me anywhere decent.  But it’s a degree, and I want it.  And the fact that they are delaying it so long, and making my life so much more difficult because of their own faults, and their constant lying towards me, it’s turning me against the University so quickly.  And I don’t want that.  I want to be able to tell my children how AWESOME my University life was, not how annoying they were.

At the end of the day though, I just have to ask myself if it’s all worth it in the end.  And after all the shit I’ve been through, after the lies, after the drama, and after the loads of money I’ve spent, is it all fucking worth it?

Dude, I made loads of friends.  I had my first proper girls night out with the people I met, and I actually turned myself into a young woman, rather then stayed a child.  I’ve met some of the best people, had some of the best time, and fell in love for the first time.

Of course it was worth it.  They’re just going to have to stop pissing me off.

Oh and just for Gerry and Sammi: Dude, seriously, I am getting comments from random people on DailyBooth, AND I have randomers following me.  Is this normal?  Or am I becoming slightly cool on DailyBooth?  Because that is the place that I want to be known for! x